Tomorrow is the day - the day I start my last diet. The day I begin becoming my new self. The day I say goodbye to saying: "I'll start on Monday," or "I already messed up once today - may as well go for the gold," or "It's winter; I can layer for a few months and worry about it in the spring." Tomorrow is the day my old habits disappear, and my old excuses with them. At 1:00 tomorrow I have my first official Weight Watchers meeting.
I'm excited. I'm anxious. I'm nervous. I'm a lot of things.
Even though I know I will be one of the thinner people involved in the meeting, I'm somewhat embarrassed to even have to be sitting in that room. Being the thinnest fat person still makes you fat. It still leaves you wanting to make a change - a change I've attempted to make at least a dozen times. My head starts to spin into self doubt as I type that last sentence - yeah, I have tried this a dozen times ... why will this time be any different? I guess I don't really have a reason, except, well, it has to. I know I am not meant to be fat; I am not meant to doubt my attractiveness and self-worth; I am not meant to dread wearing a bathing suit at the beach or wearing a dress anywhere; I am not meant to fear that in relationships I will meet his girl friends and realize they are prettier than me; I am not meant to live like this anymore.
This is not who I am! And so I'm not going to be this way anymore.
And so tomorrow, I stop being this way. Period.
About the Author
Meet Samantha, a twenty-something aspiring musical theatre performer based in the greater Chicagoland area. My three greatest passions are the power of music, the comfort of family and friends, and the enjoyment of food. My weight has held me back for years, keeping me from being truely happy and succeeding in the things I care about most. Now I'm in a new city, living a new life, and enough is enough! Time to finally finish what I've started.
Progress
Goals and Rewards
[♥] 160 lbs: Join Weight Watchers - 11.07.12
[ ] 150 lbs: Swedish Massage
[ ] 140 lbs: Jekyll & Hyde Tickets
[ ] 130 lbs: Designer Swimsuit
[ ] 125 lbs: New Set of Headshots
[ ] 5% Club: Trip to Las Vegas
Read more about my goals and rewards here.
[ ] 150 lbs: Swedish Massage
[ ] 140 lbs: Jekyll & Hyde Tickets
[ ] 130 lbs: Designer Swimsuit
[ ] 125 lbs: New Set of Headshots
[ ] 5% Club: Trip to Las Vegas
Read more about my goals and rewards here.
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